is being ‘normal’ really this boring?
by lifeonaxis1
i’ve been on 900 mg of lithium for a little over two weeks now. i’ve experienced some strange fluctuations since starting. first, there was mild hypomania and then really deep depression and then back up to another mild hypomania, followed by a sense of panic and then…
———————————–FLAT————————————–
i feel like i’m living in 2D. activities sound BORING. all of them. sometimes i want to bang my head against a wall because it sounds like a bit of fun.
i get bored reading and playing video games and walking my dogs and talking to people and writing my blog. i even found a stray puppy yesterday and brought her home, thinking there’s no way to get bored with a puppy! but i did.
i’m on my way to becoming a robot.
Hm. Who knows what normal is? My life is pretty consistently like this; it takes a special event to get me excited. In my deeper depression, it was a whole lot worse. I just didn’t care.
I don’t know if that’s what you’re experiencing. Perhaps it’s the effect of a seriously strong mood stabilizer. Interesting that you’re documenting, though – it’ll be curious to see what it charts like.
yeah… i’m so stable, i got bored with charting my mood. :-X
seriously. >.<