toxicity
by lifeonaxis1
how is it that i spent months dreaming about something, and when it finally came, all i got was this lousy searing pain?
why didn’t i anticipate the magnitude of the loss and the absence?
how can anger and feelings of injustice be so blown out of proportion that i am blind to all else?
i considered taking it back today. but he’s better off.
i’m toxic.
Mood Disorder, Not Otherwise Specified 
No you’re not. Though I know my words aren’t going to do much to change your mind at the moment.
actually, i’ve been lucky enough to have some friends and family who have helped me adjust my attitude about this. thank you for respecting the possibility that i might be too stuck in my own mind to be receptive though.