i was just feeling pleased with myself when my phone alerted me to a new text message. from XBF.
he wrote that there’s a problem with his ticket and he will have to come out some other weekend. and that “he’ll let me know”.
a few texts back and forth and the most information i’ve got is that he has no idea if it will be by the end of this month. so i went for it. i asked if he’d have time to talk this weekend.
i said i’d like to talk about what happened and why.
he’s not responded. i don’t think he will.
which means that i am going to have to find closure on my own. that i have to truly let him go, starting now. i’m not ready for that. the gaping wound feels ripped open again. just when it was starting to heal.