take a deep breath.
that’s what i say to myself when i review the variables on my plate.
one thing at a time.
that’s my second thought, because my obligations are mounting.
i can do this.
the third and final thought. a welcome one because it has been so long since i’ve believed it.
i would just like to take an inventory of the tasks i am [slowly] incorporating into my life.
- i have successfully taught 150+ students at two campuses
- i have semi-successfully managed a TA for the first time
- i am increasingly connecting with friends and family, welcoming long phone conversations and venturing into social activities of increasing diversity and complexity
- i maintain a relatively clean home
- i make time for relaxation and hobbies
- i make an effort toward exercise and achieving a healthy lifestyle
- i have begun planning my online winter course (key question: how much grading do i really want to do over winter break?)
- i will begin planning my online spring course
- i am working on three collaborations: 1) a methods paper with my advisor, 2) a model of aggregate economic factors and behavior, 3) a revision and extension of my Master’s thesis
- i will revisit my dissertation beginning next semester
- i will seek out additional collaborations to build my academic resume
- i am thinking about potential jobs and places to live
i would just like to say: relative to even as recently as august, my life has completely turned around. i could not function, think, speak, or interact with people. i have come, quite literally, from nothing. no ability to handle responsibilities. no ability to think or speak. no ability to perform mundane tasks.
assuming i can keep her steady, my life may become very fulfilling indeed.